Beautiful Morning…

It’s a gorgeous Sunday morning and I’ve been having a lovely weekend. The weather is finally turning a corner, (for now anyways…) which I believe has contributed to my overly positive attitude these past few days. After several months of unfortunate circumstances and terrible weather I am finally awakening to a brighter and happier demeanor that, I have to admit, has been extremely difficult to achieve. Perhaps its all of the yoga that I have been doing that has assisted with my spiritual and emotional state that has transitioned from one of frustration and confusion to hope and tranquility.

Yesterday I was outside gazing into the clear sun, closing my eyes for a brief moment allowing this vivid light warm my body and soul, and I realized I finally accept the careless state of being in a world of uncertainty; I no longer have expectations of what tomorrow will bring, I am simply living my life through each passing moment without any sort of anticipation. I still struggle with an issue that has bogged my life for several years, and accept it is a lifelong battle, but feel as if I finally want to tread the waters of a calmer sea and free myself from the constraints and loneliness of a wearing existence.

I am not fooling myself however, I am still a very structured and organized person who does like to stick with her daily routine, but living with structure and neglecting the desire to understand the absurdity of life, and recognizing this law with ease and compassion, can coincide together. So have I become an enlightened individual? - Highly unlikely. I do believe I have come to an understanding, one that feels dream-like yet utterly real and I may be unable to explain to anyone so I shall remain silent.